Disarm

Music 1
  1. Scared To Capsize
  2. A-Hole
  3. No Fireworks
  4. Slow Puncture
  5. NIMN
  6. Olympian
  7. Eye Spy
  8. Let This Be
  9. Got Milk
  10. I Am
  11. Chicken
  12. ghostsandshadows
  13. (Love) Like Liars

My first album was recorded in the biting winter of 2009. After a few abortive attempts to gather the songs together over previous years, I was contacted by Myles Clarke via MySpace – he was setting up a new studio and looking for artists to work with. Perfect timing!

I could only afford to pay for 17 days in the studio, to include tracking and mixing, so we worked fast. It was magical to hear all the parts that had been swirling around in my head for years come to life and I’ll always have a soft spot for what we created on a crazy tight budget, greasy takeaways and many, many cups of tea.

Click here to listen to the audio commentary, click here to listen to “Disarm:15” and click here to grab the last remaining limited edition “Disarm” t-shirts.

Scroll down for the lyrics.

CREDITS

Produced by Laura Kidd and Myles Clarke at Studio B, London Fields.
Mixed by Myles Clarke.
Mastered by Dick Beetham at 360 Mastering, London.

All music and lyrics by Laura Kidd.

All instruments and programming by Laura Kidd except drum programming on tracks 1, 3, 4, 10 & 13, piano and additional acoustic guitar on track 4, synths on track 1, 3, 5, 8, 9, 12 and additional piano on track 13 by Myles Clarke, vocals on tracks 5 and 7 by Usuyak Bassey, handclaps on track 13 by Cat Munro, Laura Ward and Usuyak Bassey and harp on track 3 by Kat Arney.

LYRICS © Laura Kidd

Scared To Capsize

Wasn’t that what you said?
Wasn’t that what you meant to say?
With three little words you lied
I don’t think you realise

Wasn’t worried by the time, no
The time, but
What took you so long?
Wasn’t bothered by the lukewarm emotion
I played along

Wasn’t that what you said?
Wasn’t that what you meant to say?
With three little words you lied
I don’t think you realise

So you spill your heart all over computer
But not to my eyes
Darling drink your nervous wine, yeah
I know you’re scared to capsize

Wasn’t that what you said?
Wasn’t that what you meant to say?
With three little words you lied
I don’t think you realise

A-Hole

Digging ourselves a hole
Dark little cave to lie low
Take off our faces and carry on so
We’re digging ourselves a hole

I’ll mix you a drink of my tears
Spike it with blood, lust and cheer
As it pours from my punctures please kiss me my dear
Raise your glass to mine

Connect - disconnect - connect - disconnect
Connect - disconnect - connect - disconnect
Connect - disconnect - connect - disconnect
Connect - disconnect - connect - disconnect

Digging ourselves a hole
Take it in turns to patrol
I’ll build the watchtower if you take the toll
Back to back we’ll face the world

Connect - disconnect - connect - disconnect
Connect - disconnect - connect - disconnect
Connect - disconnect - connect - disconnect
Connect - disconnect - connect - disconnect

Connect - disconnect - connect - disconnect
Connect - disconnect - connect - disconnect
Connect - disconnect - connect - disconnect
Connect - disconnect - connect - disconnect

No Fireworks

We find so little to fight about these days, don’t we?
We don’t torture each other any more - there’s no point
So come in love let’s huddle together
As the planes carve up the sky the stars swerve satellites
Trying to send hopeful signs home

There’s no fireworks for us this year
There’s no need to make explosions in the air
So no fireworks for us this year
But I don’t mind
There’s something else

I can’t write happy songs but I
Feel safe sometimes
Won’t push you away from me any more
Oh darling press your cheek to mine, will you
Let’s pray faithlessly together for the future
If there’s one

There’s no fireworks for us this year
There’s no need to make explosions in the air
So no fireworks for us this year
But I don’t mind
No I don’t mind

Slow Puncture

We find so little to fight about these days, don’t we?
We don’t torture each other any more - there’s no point
So come in love let’s huddle together
As the planes carve up the sky the stars swerve satellites
Trying to send hopeful signs home

There’s no fireworks for us this year
There’s no need to make explosions in the air
So no fireworks for us this year
But I don’t mind
There’s something else

I can’t write happy songs but I
Feel safe sometimes
Won’t push you away from me any more
Oh darling press your cheek to mine, will you
Let’s pray faithlessly together for the future
If there’s one

There’s no fireworks for us this year
There’s no need to make explosions in the air
So no fireworks for us this year
But I don’t mind
No I don’t mind

4. Slow Puncture

A pale voice and a paper tear
The bullets scud, hunting blood
But it’s friendly fire my love
We changed tyres but we’re losing air
So hold me close as we drive
We’re in for a bumpy ride

It’s just a slow puncture
Bringing us down
Twisting me round
Just a slow puncture
Stealing our sound
Taking us down

The thread broke so we’re ripping seams
I’m daring you to deny this Gemini butterfly
The snow’s deep but we’re dressed in dreams
Oh honey hang on cos we’re all just surviving here

It’s just a slow puncture
Bringing us down
Twisting me round
Just a slow puncture
Stealing our sound
Taking us down

I see light on dark days

NIMN

Frost in brain, in the heart
Back to the bone and back to the start
Glitterballs and combat paint
Less we care about, less we ache
Shadows and ghosts, an easterly wind
Bringing us back once more to dream
Not in my name, not in my name
Never, never [avert your eyes]
Not in my name
Not in my name, not in my name
Never, never, never

Crush of salt under blackened lashes
Bulldoze bodies while we avert eyes
Shield us from the terrified
Oh man, what happened with our alibi?
When will we...

Not in my name, not in my name [when will we cry]
Never, never, not in my name [avert your eyes]
Not in my name, not in my name [avert your eyes]
Never, never, never [part time warrior]

Avert your eyes, shield us from the terrified
Avert your eyes - thank you and good night

Not in my name, not in my name
Never never

Oh we’re all terrified til we die

Olympian

Clouds collide, falling, melting in to blue
I deny feeling anything for you

You were the best thing I turned my back on

Others love, I stay rooted to the ground
Losing, never found
Olympian
Show me how to feel again
Save me, my Apollo

You were the best thing I turned my back on
My lead heart frozen

So we suffer love’s slings and blunt arrows
I got the lead and you took the gold
Now I’m baring my bark but you want to bite
Let’s bury it, bury it

Our love is a bird with a broken back that you buried in the shade of my branches
Watch the weeds grow tall as our dreams turn cold
And all we have left are half remembered truths

You were the best thing

So we suffer love’s slings and blunt arrows
I got the lead and you took the gold
Now I’m baring my bark but you want to bite

Eye Spy

Oh, isn’t it fun to be free?
I’m pretty sure you’ll agree
There’s nothing better than winning

Surprise!
Nothing is quite as it seems
He’s taking tea with the Queen
While everyone else breaks their promises

How did it come to this?
Now it seems so obvious

Oh I spy
Too many children have died
Isn’t that what we desired?
Isn’t that what we all wanted?

Let This Be

Please boy shut your mouth
There’s no time to talk shit out
Ticking lives aside
They’re not forgotten, not denied

Please boy come with me
I’m drilling holes to sweet relief
The blood fog’s in me

So come, hey
I’m gonna take your tears away
I’m gonna take your tears away
Because everything hurts

Please boy shut my mouth
Look how we talked the dawn around
Declare war with me
We’re dropping bombs in foreign fields
Just like you, just like me
To let this be

So come, hey
I’m gonna take your tears away
I’m gonna take your tears away
Because everything hurts

So come, hey
I’m gonna take your tears away
I’m gonna gonna take your tears away
Because everything's gone
Don’t stop revealing, don’t stop
Don’t stop revealing, don’t stop
Don’t stop revealing, don’t stop
I’m gonna take your tears away
I’m gonna take your tears away
I’m gonna take your tears

Got Milk

I’ve got milk, I’ve got milk ohhhh
I’ve got milk, I’ve got milk

Yeah I’ve got milk, bones, guts and blood
It’s nothing to hide from just what I’m made of
You think it’s dirty but I know it’s good
Come over here now boy and get sticky like my love

You told me you’d show me how much you had grown
You told me you’d show me how much you had

I’ve got milk, I’ve got milk woooo
I’ve got milk, I’ve got milk

Stupid bloody valentine, lick my neck and spill my wine
We’ve got hips and seams that rip and no desire to waste our time

You told me you’d show me how much you had grown
You told me you’d show me how much you had

I’ve got milk
I’ve got milk ohhhh
I’ve got milk
I’ve got milk

I’ve got
I’ve got milk and I’ve got bones
I’ve got milk and I’ve got blood
(I’ve got milk, I’ve got blood)
(I’ve got milk, I’ve got blood)
I’ve got milk uh-huh

I Am

I am the sweet defender
I am the one you bruised
I am sick of feeling
I am sick of feeling used

I am the one who held you
I am the one who was always there
My heart, so swollen and sick to find
That love was useless

Now my tears stain
The streets you named
You kissed my heart then you ripped it away
But I only hold myself to blame
You ripped it away

I am the one left craving
I am the one who ends up alone
I am the one who loved you
I am the one you don’t

Now my tears stain
The streets you named
You kissed my heart then you ripped it away
But I only hold myself to blame
You ripped it away

Chicken

Tell me your secrets, I’ll tell you my lies

Tell me everything - don’t bury it
What’s the use of skirting round it?
Give the guilty gossip tell me, tell me

The panic voices in your head
They’ll buzz around until they kill you
Melt away the brain cells til you’re dead

Come on chicken
Bang your empty head
Give it up, give it up
Tell me

I’m growing tired of your excuses
Your indecision with the truth is
Getting on my nerves I have to say

So count to ten I need a friend
Oh spit it out cos I’m not laughing
I’m planning to walk out of here alive

Come on chicken
Bang your empty head
Give it up, give it up
Tell me

Love (Like Liars)

Fade
Fade out
It’s easier than living

Touch like people
Like you know what you want to be feeling

All I’m asking for is a little soul
A little fire, a little more

Love like liars
It’s easier to fall apart than fix it
Talk like cowards
Let it all build up til you are powerless

All I’m asking for is a little soul
A little fire, a little more
All I’m asking for is a little soul
A little fire, a little more