Direction Of Travel

Direction Of Travel 5
  1. Drown Me Out
  2. Cold Shoulder
  3. In Cold Blood
  4. Alone
  5. Paper Thin (featuring Tanya Donelly)
  6. Please Don’t
  7. Stargazing
  8. Slow Down Sunshine
  9. 5000 Miles
  10. Time To Be Unkind (featuring Mark Chadwick)
  11. Turning To You
  12. The Best

My third album Direction Of Travel was made in the cold months straddling 2014 and 2015 in Bristol, Brighton and London.

It felt like a long time coming. Between releasing “Little Battles” in 2012 I’d moved cities, lived in six different houses, loved a little and lost a lot. Right before I went in to the studio in December 2014 I tested my mettle with a 35 date tour, consisting of three weeks adventuring around Germany on my own, travelling by train, and three weeks supporting The Levellers in Germany, The Netherlands, Sweden, Denmark and all around the UK.

I survived to tell the tales contained within these songs, and now it’s time for them to find their own direction of travel. Thank you so much for listening.

Scroll down for lyrics…click here for reviews.

CREDITS

Produced by Laura Kidd.
Mixed by Dan Austin.

All songs and music by Laura Kidd.

Engineered by TJ Allen at Station 7, J&J Studios and Planet 245, Bristol.
Additional engineering by Matthew Twaites at Metway Studio, Brighton and Laura Kidd at Knowle Rocks, Bristol.
Mastered by Dick Beetham at 360 Mastering, Hastings.
Artwork and design by Alex Bertram-Powell.
Portrait photography by Dina Karklina, travel photography by Laura Kidd.

All instruments played by Laura Kidd except:

Guest vocals on track 5 by Tanya Donelly, and track 10 by Mark Chadwick.
Drums on tracks 1, 2, 3, 8 by Andy Sutor, drums on track 4 by Clive Deamer
Piano on tracks 10 and 12 by Cajita.
Strings on track 3, 6 and 7 by Nicole Robson and Simon Goff.
Strings on track 5 and 9 by The McCarricks.
String arrangement on track 7 by Andrew Skeet.
Backing vocals on track 4 by Tim Bailey, Cajita, Mishkin Fitzgerald, Ami Amp, Josie Ghost, Gaz Brookfield, Chris Nicholls and Ian Blundell.
Drum programming on track 9 by TJ Allen.

Special thanks to everyone who helped make this album by pledging, especially David Callier, Antony Hoskins, Ralf Synowzik, Paul Beauchamp, Jordan Hicks, Jan Zimmermann, Wayne Hemingway, John Bell, Andrew Shield, Dietmar Bloech, Richard Bennett, Gerd Schoenewolf, Matthew Powell, Willie Smith, Jan Zimmermann, Steve Watts, Timothy Masters, James Smith, Matthew Falconer, Jon Vile, Robert Penfold, Kevin Tanswell, Nick Ash, Douglas Young, Simon Dawes, Gareth Jones, Dan Borsos, Daniel Underhill, Chris Pixie, Martin Cockrill, Cathy Griffiths, Matt Farmer, Marc Poljak, Andy White, Jennie Findlay, Hype Less, Tim Ellis, Michael Kalman, Peter Kent, Jonathan Leonard, James Hill, Nicholas Manktelow, Keith Kerwin, Dávid Kovács, Chris Gregory, Adam Hill, Michael Ray, Daniel O’Brien, Santiago Seoane Portela and Michael East. We did it!

LYRICS © Laura Kidd

Drown Me Out

We’re not safe here now, I have burned the lighthouse down
You’re not good for me

Diving dreams to sea, but the rocks have stopped me
They’re not friendly

Would you fall asleep so I can’t reach you?
Would you turn away so I can’t touch you?

Forfeit myself - drown me, drown me out
Sick of silence - drown me, drown me out
I’m not sorry - drown me, drown me out
Kisses smother me - drown me out

Darkness take me soon
Water suck me under - it’s my escape from you

Would you fall asleep so I can’t reach you
Would you turn away so I can’t touch you

Forfeit myself - drown me, drown me out
Sick of silence - drown me, drown me out
I’m not sorry - drown me, drown me out
Kisses smother me

So you’re throwing a rope
Cos your victim is overboard
But I’m looking for something wonderful
To keep me in this lifeboat

Would you fall asleep so I can’t reach you
Would you turn away so I can’t touch you

Forfeit myself - drown me, drown me out
I’m not sorry - drown me, drown me out
Sadness suffocate - drown me, drown me out
Sick of silence, sick of myself
Drown me out - ah

Cold Shoulder

I’m waiting in line
He’s taking his fucking time
I’m not doing all right
I did some crying on my friend last night

You know I’m not stupid
So why don’t you tell me what you’ve done?
You say you’re a good man
So come on and prove it with action
I’m not going to kiss your cold shoulder again
I’m waiting to find out who you think you are
And what’s going on in your head

What’s coming for me?
Ex-girlfriend or STD?
Don’t call me baby
I know he shouldn’t mean this much to me

You know I’m not stupid
So why don’t you tell me what you’ve done?
You say you’re a good man
So come on and prove it with action
I’m not going to kiss your cold shoulder again
I’m waiting to find out who you think you are
And what’s going on in your head

You know I’m not stupid
So why don’t you tell me what you’ve done?
You say you’re a good man
So come on and end what you’ve begun
I’m not going to kiss your cold shoulder again
I’m dying to find out who you think you are
And what’s going on in your head

In Cold Blood

Shocked quiet
In deep
I shudder while you sleep
You’re not making sense
Are you finished with me yet

I truly meant to be decent

In cold blood I wouldn’t have
In cold blood I wouldn’t have
My heart’s not cold cos it beats for you
But I can’t stand to be this monster
In cold blood I wouldn’t

My dear absentee
This won’t end well for me
You’re happy with them
So I stand alone again

Still he kissed me
So carefully
Mouth tight with deceit

In cold blood I wouldn’t have
In cold blood I wouldn’t have
My heart’s not cold cos it beats for you
But I can’t stand to be this monster
In cold blood I wouldn’t

In cold blood I wouldn’t have
In cold blood I wouldn’t
My heart’s not cold cos it beats for you
But there’s no happy ever after
In cold blood I wouldn’t

Alone

All my days
My spirit is willing my flesh is weak
Unsteady on my feet
Don’t take care of me

We’re all always, always all alone
We’re all always, always all alone

All my days
My delicate suffering’s mine to keep
When I’m empty come - fill me
We throw insults the world throws stones

We’re all always, always all alone
We’re all always, always all alone

Oh - don’t you remember?
We were born from dust
Oh - and we’ll go back there
But we’ve got each other first

We’re all always, always all alone
We’re all always, always all alone

Paper Thin

I’m in the wars - I blame the bad weather
A flood of tears, I drift without a shelter
Reduce my world to things that I have worked for
I lick my wounds and wonder if I can mend the year

Awake
No sleep til I make
Black dreams dissipate

Ooh I crashed down, I burned out along the way
I’m a sunny day with threat of thunder, threat of rain
Ooh I crashed down, I came round to devastate
Anyway I let my skin grow paper thin
And that’s okay

I heal myself with friends and conversation
Some time alone, a sober celebration
I was told I feel things too much
But I know it hurts to be touched

Ooh I crashed down, I burned out along the way
I’m a sunny day with threat of thunder, threat of rain
Ooh I crashed down, I came round to devastate
Anyway I let my skin grow paper thin
And that’s okay

Cos I see stars
And I small roses (on good days)
All this is ours
Let’s do amazing things with good hearts

Ooh I crashed down, I burned out along the way
I’m a sunny day with threat of thunder, threat of rain
Ooh I crashed down, I came round to devastate
Anyway I let my skin grow paper thin, paper thin

I’m a sunny day with threat of thunder, threat of rain

I’m in the wars, I blame the bad weather

Please Don't

If your motor unravels
Then we’ll mend the machine
If the world disappoints you
Then we’ll make a new dream

Please don’t leave me yet
We’re all aching, full of regret
We’re all walking wounds
Brains and bodies are bruised
So please don’t leave me yet

If your thoughts overwhelm you
Then I’ll make it all right
If you’re scared of the shadows
Then I’ll stay through the night

Please don’t leave me yet
We’re all aching, full of regret
We’re all walking wounds
Brains and bodies are bruised
Let me take care of you
Please don’t leave me yet
Please don’t leave me yet
We’re all walking wounds
Brains and bodies are bruised
Still I’ll take care of you

Promise me you’ll stay here
While I travel in your footsteps around the world
Cos someday I’ll grow a new heart for you to hold
That means you’re not allowed to go
Please don’t leave me yet

Stargazing

Now every morning when I wake
I roll around and list the reasons my heart aches
You never felt like a mistake
But you’re less than a friend, less than a friend
Less than a friend, less than a friend

We went stargazing
You thought I was amazing
You said we had time
You don’t know you lie
Now you’re a stranger
I guess I never knew you
You widened my sky
But now my heart’s run dry

Done with disaster, that’s all
I don’t believe that I’ll survive this man sized storm
I don’t believe anybody any more
Cos you’re less than a friend, less than a friend
Less than a friend, less than a friend
Less than a friend, less than a friend

We went stargazing
You thought I was amazing
You said we had time
You don’t know you lie
Now you’re a stranger
I guess I never knew you
You widened my sky
But now my heart’s run dry

We went stargazing
You thought I was amazing
You said we had time
You let your body lie
Now you’re a stranger
I guess I never knew you
You widened my sky
Now just let it die
Let it die
Now just let it die

Slow Down Sunshine

Slow down sunshine
Don’t let the truth cloud your mind
Electricity is fading quietly

Blood flow
Eat me whole
Leave me cold

Stake my life
All my expensive time
Is yours to play with as you like
My heart will shake and shiver
Ohhhhhhhh

Slow down sunshine
Too many ventricles to untie
We’re vampires it’s true
But you’ll find another host to suck you

Blood flow
Eat me whole
Leave me cold

Stake my life
All my expensive time
Is yours to play with as you like
My heart will shake and shiver
Ohhhhhhhh

Slow love, leave me cold
Crush my body, drink my blood

Stake my life
All my expensive time
Is yours to play with as you like
My heart will shake my heart will
Stake my life
All my expensive time
Is yours to play with as you like
My heart will shake my heart will shake

Ohhhhhhhh

5000 Miles

5000 miles spent at sea
Braving the world wild and free
Guardian swallow watch over me
5000 miles, 5000 goodbyes
5000 miles, 5000 miles, 5000 miles
5000 goodbyes

The river broke reality
The parts of my anatomy
Enjoy the swim, survive the frost
Not all who wander will get lost

Summer days are stalling, stalling
Frozen fingers calling, calling

5000 miles spent at sea
Braving the world wild and free
Guardian swallow watch over me
5000 miles, 5000 goodbyes

Throw messages in to the sea
We look for love, for loyalty
A waste of ink, my bag stays packed
All the bottles come right back

Oh summer days are stalling, stalling
Frozen fingers calling, calling

5000 miles spent at sea
Braving the world wild and free
Guardian swallow watch over me
5000 miles, 5000 goodbyes

Time To Be Unkind

I followed you too far
Gold arrows in my heart
I’m sure you don’t listen
Leave go - this shattered piece lies bleeding on my sleeve
Now you ask me if I won’t come back

So give me a sign I can decline
Darling it’s time to be unkind
There’s too much to take
We have to break
Darling it’s time to be unkind

At least we both admit
These words I have to spit
You don’t say anything
So now we call defeat
I sleep in other sheets
You’re so happy now I don’t come back

So give me a sign I can decline
Darling it’s time to be unkind
There’s too much to take
We have to break
Darling it’s time to be unkind

I asked you to listen
You told me you would
You promised that all of my plans and my dreams would happen with you
I told you I’d wait
But not forever
Now your long silence proves you a liar

So give me a sign I can decline
Darling it’s time to be unkind
There’s too much to take
We have to break
Darling it’s time to be unkind

Turning To You

To fall but not to break
To follow but not to take
It’s too late
I’m delicate
To be brave to protect my heart
Working out what I can discard
It’s too late
To hesitate

When all of these bad dreams have gone
And all of my darkness is overcome
Nothing will keep me from
Turning to you

I’m undone but you want me now
Before I sink to the bottom
Before I’m lost to you
Before I fall
It’s too late
Don’t hesitate

When all of these bad dreams have gone
And all of my darkness is overcome
Nothing will keep me from
It won’t be forever
Cos I don’t want to live without your love

When all of these bad dreams have gone
And all of my darkness is overcome
Nothing will keep me from you
It won’t be forever
Cos I don’t want to live without your love

The Best

Sweetheart
Drink up
Be all you dreamed of
Goodbye is not bad
There’s more than what we had

Sweetheart
You’re not mine
And that is just fine
Don’t call, don’t write
I won’t be ready to reply

I wish you the best
But there’s nothing left
For me

Goodnight sweet friend
There’s nothing to fear
I’ll keep a piece
Our memories used to be so sweet

I wish you the best
But there’s nothing left
For me
I wish you the best
Forever and ever and ever and ever
And ever and ever the best

I wish you the best
But there’s nothing left
I wish you the best
Forever and ever and ever and ever
And ever and ever the best

Sweetheart
Drink up
Be all you dreamed of